12dz Chapter 134 Those Lost Memories
Chapter 134 Those Lost Memories
Shen Mochen died, and there was no way to reload the save file.
Yu Nanqing sat in a daze in the empty room, letting the gloomy atmosphere envelop her again and again.
The glass ball on the table no longer lights up. It broke down the day Shen Mochen left, completely broken, almost to the point that it cracked and drained all the water out.
She kept picking at her nails, and before she knew it, both of her nails were worn down.
She has been sitting there motionless for two days now, and no one has come except for Yu Yan.
The daily news continued to report current events in an orderly fashion, as if Shen Mochen was truly an insignificant existence in this world.
But it seems her world has stopped turning.
Liars, a bunch of liars.
Her eyes were clouded, and tears suddenly streamed down her face. She cried so hard she could hardly breathe, breaking down to the point of near shock for the first time since the incident.
After crying all night, just when the system thought that erasing her memory would help her cheer up, she suddenly became as if nothing had happened. She ate calmly, went out to discuss work calmly, and calmly arranged Shen Mochen's funeral with Yu Yan.
Shen Mochen's funeral happened to fall on Chinese New Year.
Whether it was because others thought it was bad luck, or because there were too few people who felt sorry for Shen Mochen, only five people came that day.
He Jing, Grandpa Shen, Xia Yue, Assistant Yan, and Chen Qing.
Everyone seemed like NPCs, especially Grandpa Shen and Xia Yue. They had finally broken free from the plot and became exceptionally normal, without any obsessions or arguments, resembling proper elders and considerate suitors.
Upon seeing Yu Nanqing, they even told her to accept her fate and move on.
I am sorry for your loss?
It's impossible to save a single penny, and it's impossible to make things go smoothly.
After seeing everyone off, her gaze fell on Chen Qing, who was the last to arrive.
The other person brought a bouquet of chrysanthemums to see Shen Mochen because if it weren't for Shen Mochen that day, he would have been the one who died.
According to Chen Qing, Shen Mochen resisted fiercely that day, but gradually stopped resisting and didn't move again until he died.
When the group saw that someone had died, they panicked, abandoned him, and fled.
Fortunately, after the group left, a policeman who was patrolling abandoned buildings came in and rescued him.
Yu Nanqing listened quietly, her gaze fixed on Shen Mochen's photo on the memorial tablet.
This photo was cut out from a photo of us together.
Shen Mochen doesn't like taking solo photos, so she couldn't find a single solo photo of him; his album was full of photos of him with her.
She was unusually calm inside, and she hid her inexplicable anger very well. It wasn't until she plunged the knife she was carrying into Chen Qing's heart that she could no longer pretend. With red eyes, she cried and made accusations.
She regretted it. Even if she had to reload her save countless times, she should have remained steadfast in her choice of Shen Mochen.
She should stall for time; if she were smarter, she might be able to save Shen Mochen.
She had said it before: Shen Mochen was dead, and she couldn't live on alone.
She is not from this world; her fate is controlled by the system. Therefore, the only way she can be killed by the system is if she attacks Chen Qing.
She guessed right; the world alarm went off, causing her to faint instantly.
After a dizzying sensation, she slowly opened her eyes, only to find everything white before her.
The empty room contained nothing but her and her reflection.
The boundless space filled her with endless confusion. She swallowed hard and took two steps back. "Where... am I?"
No one answered her, but after she spoke, some unfamiliar images quickly flashed before her eyes.
Her pupils widened slightly as she reached out to grab them, but the images slipped through her fingers and vanished as soon as she did.
In less than two minutes, the scene before her eyes vanished completely. She couldn't see clearly, only fragments of her and Shen Mochen's figures.
Before she could even stop thinking, a sharp pain shot through her head, and a strange yet familiar memory rushed into her mind.
The intense pain made her clutch her head and howl in agony, her forehead dripping with cold sweat. The sensation only subsided after she passed out.
When I woke up again, I was surrounded by unfamiliar surroundings.
Yu Nanqing paused, thinking it was still a space. The empty room was filled with desolation and bleakness, and her heart ached inexplicably, clenching violently, and she felt an immense sense of loneliness.
She calmed herself down and suddenly heard a cat meow. She looked towards the source of the sound and her gaze fell on the black and white cat on the windowsill. She was stunned.
This dream... feels so real.
She twitched her brow slightly, tentatively got out of bed and walked over. As soon as she reached out her hand to the cat, it darted away.
Yu Nanqing watched its departing figure, shook her head, and looked out the window, suddenly feeling a strong sense of familiarity.
The walls are covered with roses, there's a small orange and white attic, a big yellow dog stretching in the flowerbed, and white swans quacking loudly in the viewing lake.
These are scenes from that memory that flooded my mind last time.
Her thoughts froze, and the scene before her suddenly began to change. She saw "the young her" wearing a pink tutu, hiding in front of the villa, and then suddenly running away as "the young Shen Mochen" approached from not far away.
The enthusiastic girl pestered the aloof Shen Mochen, asking for a ride to school, but was refused. After stomping her feet and complaining a few times, she obediently got into her family's car behind her.
The scene shifts again, and in the lively private room, she is wearing a beautiful dress and a birthday hat. She blows out the candles with a smile, and as the lights come on, she looks at Shen Mochen sitting beside her and then bluntly states her birthday wish.
She wanted to be with him.
The atmosphere was made ambiguous by the cheers around them. Her eyes were filled with tension and anticipation, and her sparkling eyes dimmed to the bottom when the door to the private room was pushed open again.
Shen Mochen didn't respond to her, but his action of walking away with the woman who had entered the private room clearly indicated that he had rejected her.
The images shifted frame by frame, and Yu Nanqing's already malfunctioning brain began to throb with pain. She crouched on the ground in agony as her fragmented memories were gradually filled in.
She remembered it all.
She fell in love with Shen Mochen at first sight and followed him around for many years, but her pursuit was always unsuccessful.
On her twentieth birthday, she was decisively rejected. After drinking until she had a stomach hemorrhage, she awakened to her self-awareness and realized that she was just a supporting female character in a book, while Shen Mochen was the villain who was devoted to the female lead.
There is absolutely no possibility between her and Shen Mochen.
But she never believed in these things, so she didn't take it seriously and rallied her spirits to continue chasing after Shen Mochen.
Until one plot point, Shen Mochen was almost stabbed to death, and she rushed out to take the blow for him.
Because of her strong will to survive, the system approached her and erased all her memories, partly to prevent her from having any further contact with Shen Mochen, and partly to make her disappear from this world completely.