12dz Chapter 240 Can't I get angry with you?
Chapter 240 Can't I get angry with you?
Qin Yizhen knew why there hadn't been any good news.
However, seeing how likable Lu Jianjia was, she couldn't stop thinking about it and tossed and turned all night, unable to sleep. Finally, she couldn't help but poke the chest of the person next to her.
"What's wrong?" He held her hand in his and couldn't help but ask, "Want more?"
Qin Yizhen was so angry that she punched his chest: "Why is your mind always filled with these kinds of things? Can't I talk to you about something?"
Cheng Yan thought to himself, "I'm already lying in bed. If I don't think about these things, am I supposed to recite some Taoist or Buddhist scriptures?"
Moreover, in June and July, when the weather was too hot, she complained about the heat and his excessive sweating, so she wasn't very willing to be intimate with him. Now that the weather has cooled down a bit, she doesn't allow him to think about it too much since he's finally enjoying a few good days.
Besides, he was thinking to himself that if he found it too hot in the summer, he might find it too cold in the winter, and he wouldn't be very happy then either.
Just thinking about it gives me a headache.
However, since you indulged yourself, you can only suffer the consequences. Take advantage of this good time to reclaim as much as possible.
"What is it? You said to go to sleep quickly, otherwise you won't be able to get up tomorrow and you'll get mad at me again."
Qin Yizhen snorted twice and pinched his waist: "Can't I get angry with you?"
"No," Cheng Yan immediately admitted, "It's all my fault."
Although admitting his mistake immediately might seem cowardly, it came from the bottom of his heart.
Imagine, between him and his wife, he didn't really need to worry about saving face. At first, he was a little embarrassed, but after a while, he handled it fluently and had no psychological burden at all.
Seeing that he admitted his mistake, Qin Yizhen calmed down. She snuggled closer to him, rested her head on his hand, and leaned against him as she spoke, "Could you please not take that medicine?"
"What medicine?"
"Don't play dumb. The medicine you took..." Qin Yizhen glared at him. "Today I met the daughter of the Lady of Changting. Her name is Jianjia. She's so pretty and lovable, and she's also lively and cute."
Cheng Yan opened his eyes and looked at her. Her eyes were so deep that one dared not look directly at them.
"Want to have a child?" he asked her.
"What? You don't want it?"
Cheng Yan was silent for a moment, then reached out and stroked her hair and patted her back, seemingly not wanting to talk about this topic anymore. He coaxed her, "Go to sleep, we'll talk about it tomorrow."
"What do you mean, 'we'll talk about it tomorrow'?" Qin Yizhen sat up abruptly, staring at him. "Don't you want a child?"
"That's not true." Cheng Yan reached out and pulled her back to lie down. "You're not feeling well, you need to rest more. Be good and listen to me."
Qin Yizhen snorted, feeling that he really was treating her like a fool.
"Actually, I can roughly tell that you don't really want children, Cheng Yan. Why is that?"
She really couldn't understand why some people in the world didn't want children.
Cheng Yan reached out and stroked her face, but didn't say anything.
Qin Yizhen reached out and pushed him: "If you don't explain yourself clearly today, don't even think about sleeping!"
Cheng Yan sighed deeply: "Is this something that can't be let go of?"
"Of course you can't get through." Qin Yizhen bit her lip.
She had always thought that she would spend her whole life with him, have a child with him, and if he could survive this calamity and live a long and healthy life, that would be the best, and the whole family would be happy and joyful.
But if you can't avoid it, then leave a child behind, so that at least there's someone to carry on the family line, and you won't be left without anyone to worship you after your death.
At first, she was full of anticipation, wondering when she could have a child. Later, when she learned that he had taken medication because he was worried about her health, she was actually quite happy and thought that it was okay to wait before having a child.
She does want children, but her own health and safety are more important.
But as time went by, she seemed to secretly glimpse his inner thoughts. He was worried about her health, and it was also possible that he didn't want children.
Qin Yizhen had been holding back for a long time, but today she couldn't hold back any longer and wanted to ask him a reason.
"Okay, okay, don't be angry. Don't bite your lip, it hurts my heart."
"You don't care about me at all, you just know how to coax me. If I had known you would be like this, I would have... I would not have stayed with you."
"Qin Yizhen!" Cheng Yan's face darkened, and he reached out to pinch her cheek. "Don't say these things again."
He has always been extremely indulgent towards her, and he would tolerate and coax her whenever she had a little temper tantrum, but there is only one bottom line: she should never think about leaving him.
Qin Yizhen was startled by him, and tears welled up in her eyes. She then pushed him away, got out of his arms, and turned her back to him.
If she doesn't want to talk, then she won't. She's too lazy to listen anyway; she doesn't care if she talks or not.
If you can't speak your mind properly and insist on keeping it bottled up inside, hiding it and lying to her, don't blame her for not giving him a good look.
But thinking about his cold attitude towards her, Qin Yizhen felt a little wronged. It was clearly his fault, yet he spoke so loudly.
Seeing that she was really angry, Cheng Yan panicked a little and, without thinking, pulled her into his arms: "Are you angry?"
Qin Yizhen struggled for a moment, but seeing that his arm was like an iron hoop and she couldn't break free, she had no choice but to give up. But she still didn't want to talk to him anymore. She wiped away her tears, grabbed the blanket and covered her head, not wanting to talk to him anymore.
Let's leave it at that until this matter is sorted out.
Cheng Yan reached out and pulled the blanket down, letting her expose her head: "Be careful not to suffocate, it's not comfortable to sleep like this."
Qin Yizhen snorted: "None of your business."
Cheng Yan sighed, knowing that he wouldn't be easy to appease.
But when it came to actually talking about these things, he didn't know how to tell her. However, if he didn't explain things clearly, he felt that this matter would never end, and he would definitely not have a good life.
Forget about a loving marriage; he should be happy if she even gives him a kind look.
Just as he was sorting things out and figuring out how to tell her, he found that she had already fallen asleep, curled up quietly with her back to him, her little face buried in the blanket, her eyes still a little red, and there were traces of tears left behind.
Cheng Yan paused, feeling a sudden, intense pain, as if his heart was being squeezed by a hand.
Seeing that she was asleep, Cheng Yan didn't want to disturb her anymore, but he himself couldn't fall asleep while lying there.
His mind was a jumble of thoughts. He thought of Marquis Chengen, Lady Ming, Lady Zhang, Emperor Taizong, Empress Dowager Cheng, Qin Yizhen and her siblings, and even himself.
All he could do for his wife was to give her everything good and protect her for a lifetime of peace and happiness.
But when it comes to children, he really doesn't know what to do.
He feared that if she gave birth, she would lose her life like his mother.
He was also afraid that he wouldn't care enough for his child and that the child would live the same kind of life as him. He was even more afraid that he would spoil the child too much and turn the child into a spoiled brat like Princess Huizhen or even Pei Yutang, who would drive him crazy every day.
Or, if he were to die young, he wouldn't want her to become like Empress Dowager Cheng, toiling away her whole life for the sake of her children.