12dz Chapter 144 Princess, do you think the Marquis will love you for a lifetime?
Chapter 144 Princess, do you think the Marquis will love you for a lifetime?
"Is it worth it?" Qin Yizhen asked her.
"If you were willing to risk your life for someone who loves you and to be with him, I would respect you as a devoted lover. But why would you do this for someone who doesn't even have you in their eyes or heart?"
"Besides, if you truly like someone, wouldn't your greatest wish be for them to be happy and well? By clinging to them like this, you'll only make them dislike and resent you, and they'll only find you repulsive."
Qin Yi really couldn't understand it. If it were her, she would rather never see someone who didn't like her.
In her previous life, she was so heartbroken and pained by Cheng Yan's death, firstly because she had let him down and failed to cherish his kindness, and secondly because he was not only her husband but also a very important family member in her life.
"I'm hideous?" Wang Xianrong found it extremely amusing. "Does the princess think she's so kind and compassionate?"
Qin Yizhen lowered her eyes and said to her, "People are selfish. Kindness is only about ensuring that one does not suffer any loss. I am the same."
“You’re right. I didn’t care about your existence before, and I even thought it was good to have you around. But I can’t get over that hurdle in my heart. With you around, the Marquis will have someone to serve him.”
"But since I have become husband and wife with the Marquis, I naturally hope to be with him in love and spend my life together."
Qin Yizhen was speaking from the heart. There is a difference between being husband and wife. Before they became husband and wife, she only hoped that Cheng Yan could be happy. If he liked, it didn't matter how many concubines he took.
But now, the thought that he might be intimate with other women, showing their nakedness and being affectionate with them, makes her feel vaguely uncomfortable.
Moreover, the discomfort accumulated more and more, to the point that she was starting to lose control of it.
She didn't want Cheng Yan to have anyone else.
"To spend a lifetime together?" Wang Xianrong scoffed, her tone dripping with sarcasm. "Does the princess think the Marquis will love you forever?"
"Now the princess is young and beautiful, as lovely as a flower, so the marquis naturally likes her. But when she grows old and her beauty fades, there will naturally be a more beautiful flower to replace her."
"There's no need to sow discord."
"Is the princess afraid?"
"Of course I'm not afraid. I can take it up today, and I can put it down tomorrow."
He now wants to spend his life with her, but what the future holds is entirely up to him. If he can continue like this, she will naturally be happy. If one day he changes his mind and thinks that other flowers are more beautiful, she will not make a scene.
He gave her his true heart, and she returned his true heart to him; when he stopped giving it, she took it back—that was all.
"You should rest well. I will arrange for a new maid to serve you. From now on, I hope you will behave yourself. As for whether you want to live or die, that's none of my business."
"If you insist on this 'I belong to the Marquis in life and in death' nonsense, I don't care. After you die, I will find you a beautiful place with green hills and clear waters to bury you."
"In this life, romantic love is not everything, and you only have one life. Just think it through."
After saying this, Qin Yizhen turned and left, returning to Chunxie Courtyard.
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When Cheng Yan returned in the evening, he saw her sitting on the wooden bed by the window in the dormitory, lost in thought, and she seemed to be in a bad mood.
"Are you worried about Miss Zhao's matter?"
"You're back." Qin Yizhen snapped out of her daze and saw him sitting down opposite her. Turning her head, she noticed that Lü Qiao, who had been guarding her, was nowhere to be seen. She shook her head helplessly, "They really are something. They didn't even tell me you were back."
After saying that, he took a teacup, poured him a cup of tea, and said, "Today's tea is Yangxian tea, please try it."
Cheng Yan took a sip, then seemed to reminisce a bit, saying, "When I was on the march, I didn't have time to enjoy tea, but drinking some tea would refresh me, so I liked to drink some coarse tea that farmers roasted themselves, which had a hint of firewood smoke."
A cup of hot tea feels like...like sitting by a warm fire on a cold day, so comforting and cozy.
Qin Yizhen said, "If you like it, it's not difficult at all. There should be some planted on the farm. We can have someone pick them and stir-fry some. It's just that it's already April, and I don't know if there are still any left to pick."
Qin Yizhen secretly made a note of this matter and would send someone to the estate later to see if there were any tea leaves that could be picked.
"Alright." Cheng Yan slowly sipped his tea, then asked her, "Is there any chance that Miss Zhao's marriage will still go through?"
Qin Yizhen sighed: "Let's see what the He family thinks. This matter is simple. If the He family doesn't work out, we can just find another one. But as for Aunt Wang, I think she seems to be a bit obsessed."
"Why do you think she's doing this? Xie Qu sacrificed so much for her back then, and she could just turn around and let it go. Now that she knows you don't have feelings for her and you're tired of her pestering you, why does she still keep clinging to you?"
Cheng Yan was also puzzled. After thinking for a moment, he said, "It's probably because she regretted abandoning Xie Qu back then, and now she can't give him up even if it means death."
Qin Yizhen blinked: "Is that so?"
Qin Yizhen was very worried. She had promised Cheng Yan that she would send these people away the same way they had been brought in. Song Pingping had already left with the letter of release from her concubine status. As for Zhao Rufang, even if this marriage didn't work out, she could find someone else. It was a bit more troublesome, but things could still be done.
She truly didn't know how to deal with Wang Xianrong.
Wang Xianrong didn't care about her own life or death, nor did she care about the rise and fall of the Wang family. Even when Qin Yizhen locked up her maid Chen Shuang, she only mentioned it once and then didn't ask any more questions.
Such a person has no weaknesses... No, no, he does have weaknesses.
Thinking of this, Qin Yizhen looked at Cheng Yan.
"Why are you looking at me?" Cheng Yan frowned.
"It's nothing." Qin Yizhen thought about it and gave up on the idea of having Cheng Yan persuade Wang Xianrong.
Wang Xianrong will not agree to leave, and no amount of persuasion will change that. Moreover, Cheng Yan does not want to see Wang Xianrong. If she brings it up, he will probably think that she is trying to push him to someone else, and the couple will probably have a fight.
It's not worth it for Wang Xianrong.
But she felt she had to make her stance clear, so she bit her lip and said, "If Aunt Wang refuses to leave and would rather die here, you won't blame me for not taking it seriously, will you?"
Upon hearing this, Cheng Yan's expression turned indifferent, revealing an indescribable coldness.
After a long silence, he said, "I'll go see her. If she's still stubborn, then leave her alone. Find a secluded courtyard in the manor for her to live in, and just pretend she never existed."
"Whether she lives or dies is her own choice, and it has nothing to do with anyone else."
At this point, Cheng Yan added to Qin Yizhen, "Remember to wait for me to come back for dinner. I'll be right back."