12dz Chapter 169 Leaving
Chapter 169 Leaving
Shen Qingyao dragged her heavy suitcase and slowly walked towards the entrance of the Marshal's Mansion.
Her steps seemed hesitant, each one feeling as weak as if she were stepping on cotton.
Just then, a tall and familiar figure suddenly appeared before them; it was none other than Si Jingnian, who had just returned.
"Ah Yao, why are you carrying a suitcase? Where are you going?"
Si Jingnian's voice was filled with obvious panic. He stared wide-eyed at the suitcase in Shen Qingyao's hand, as if he was afraid it would suddenly disappear.
Si Jingnian's usually steady and strong hands were now trembling, sometimes clenching and sometimes loosening, repeating this several times, fully revealing his extreme unease and anxiety.
Shen Qingyao raised her head, and her gaze met Si Jingnian's deep, pool-like eyes.
In just a moment, she easily saw through the complex emotions hidden in his eyes—surprise, panic, and a hint of pleading.
For some reason, seeing Si Jingnian like this, Shen Qingyao's heart, which had long been as hard as iron, inexplicably softened.
However, an endless wave of bitterness surged into my heart, quickly overwhelming that brief moment of tenderness.
The feeling was like countless tiny needles piercing the heart at the same time, bringing a piercing pain.
Shen Qingyao gritted her teeth, desperately suppressing the discomfort surging in her heart. She took a deep breath and sighed softly, trying to dispel the gloom that lingered in her heart.
"I need to go back to Lingzhou. I have some personal matters to take care of. Could you... please tell Mom?"
Shen Qingyao tried her best to make her tone sound calm and even, but her slightly trembling voice betrayed her true feelings.
Si Jingnian keenly sensed the aloofness in Shen Qingyao's words, and immediately felt as if a large lump of cold and sticky mud had been stuffed into his chest, making it almost impossible for him to breathe.
"I'll go with you."
Si Jingnian blurted out those words without even thinking.
The mere thought that Shen Qingyao might leave him and never return made his heart ache as if gripped by an invisible hand, causing him unbearable pain.
Upon hearing this, Shen Qingyao immediately waved her hands as if she had been electrocuted, her face filled with determination, without even the slightest hesitation.
"No need! No need! I can manage on my own, you don't need to worry about me. Besides, my return date is uncertain, so you don't need to go."
You have to understand, it took her a lot of effort to finally make the painful decision to completely sever ties with Si Jingnian!
Now she has made up her mind that she will never have any further entanglement with Si Jingnian.
It was only because that terrible God of Bliss was hidden within her that this evil being constantly influenced her emotions and temper.
In just a few days, her original nature had been gradually eroded, and her murderous and violent tendencies became increasingly prominent.
At this moment, anyone who dares to be alone with her will instantly ignite the raging violent impulses within her, making it difficult for her to suppress the murderous intent surging within her, and she will only want to take their life immediately.
Worse still, the God of Bliss could take complete control of her body at any time, thus achieving his goal of possessing her.
If that happens, Si Jingnian will surely die a horrible death beneath this body.
This outcome was definitely not what Shen Qingyao wanted to see.
Even if it was the Goddess of Bliss who ultimately killed Si Jingnian, this body still belonged to her after all!
Every time Shen Qingyao thought about the possibility of such an outcome, she felt as if her heart was being torn apart, and she simply could not accept such a cruel reality.
So regardless of whether her master could successfully expel the Blissful God, she had no choice but to return to Taiqing Temple without hesitation.
Even if her fate is destined to be death and annihilation, she will do everything in her power to ensure that she drags the God of Bliss down to hell with her when she dies.
We must never allow the God of Bliss to continue committing evil deeds and harming innocent people in this world.
Most importantly, she absolutely would not allow that extremely evil and shameless God of Bliss to use her body to harm the people of the world!
She would stand firm on this bottom line, no matter the cost.
Si Jingnian watched helplessly as Shen Qingyao rejected him without even a moment's thought. The pain deep within him surged forth like a tidal wave, growing ever more profound and intense.
Although he knew perfectly well that Shen Qingyao's resolute rejection of him was actually to prevent him from getting hurt.
Even though he understood the reason, his heart still ached as if it were being pierced by thousands of tiny needles at the same time.
"Ah Yao, no matter what hardships and dangers we encounter, I am willing to accompany you and face them bravely together. But... why do you have to push me away so cruelly?"
Si Jingnian's deep, pool-like eyes were now filled with stubbornness and resentment, as if they were about to burst into flames.
As he swallowed hard, his Adam's apple bobbed up and down, becoming even more clearly visible.
Shen Qingyao stared silently at Si Jingnian in front of her, her eyes filled with complex and unreadable emotions.
She parted her lips slightly, as if trying to say something to explain everything, but in the end it was all in vain, and not a single word came out.
Should she really be made to tell the truth herself—that the reason she pushed him away so resolutely was simply because she was afraid of being manipulated and controlled by the shameless God of Bliss, and that she would accidentally kill him unconsciously?
If I were to be so honest, wouldn't I appear too noble and virtuous? It would seem rather hypocritical.
Moreover, this kind of indecisive and hesitant style of doing things is completely inconsistent with her usual decisive and swift personality!
Thinking of this, Shen Qingyao simply stopped worrying about the reasons behind it.
Instead of hesitating and getting bogged down in details, it's better to be decisive and make a straightforward decision.
That means there's no need to ask or say anything more; perhaps the wisest choice for both of them is to simply go their separate ways.
Moreover, she was terribly afraid of trouble and utterly disgusted by those hesitant, nagging, and entangled scenes.
"Si Jingnian, let's just break up cleanly and go our separate ways. Wouldn't it be better if we went our separate ways? That way, we'll just be returning to our original life trajectories."
"And as you know, I've always avoided complicated interpersonal relationships, and I especially hate procrastination and lingering issues. So, I hope we can both be decisive and end this quickly and cleanly, okay?"
Shen Qingyao let out a long sigh, her voice seemingly carrying endless helplessness and resolve.
At the same time, she unconsciously tightened her grip on the suitcase handle, as if trying to gain some strength to support herself in making this difficult decision.
In fact, these words were not only spoken to Si Jingnian, but also to himself.
After all, at this moment, she was not entirely without emotion. To say that she had no lingering feelings or soft heart towards the man she had once deeply loved would be a lie.
However, reason kept reminding her that she must not let momentary weakness or fleeting emotions make her forget the enormous threat hidden within her—the existence of the God of Elysium.
If the God of Bliss successfully possesses her body, the consequences will be unimaginable. At that point, it will no longer be as simple as the emotional entanglement between her and Si Jingnian.
Rather, it will affect the life and death of all those still alive in the world.
Thinking of this, Shen Qingyao completely abandoned that last bit of fantasy in her heart, and secretly warned herself that she must stick to her bottom line and not let the God of Bliss succeed in possessing her body no matter what.