Trajectory 2: entangled curves

Chapter 262 You Will Give Me Everything

Zhuge Qinuo, who was in a dream, knew what the text message was at that time.

It was not the Huang Cangran in her mind, but the him Huang Cangran mentioned, Zhuge Yihua.

She looked at Huang Cangran and herself from a very different perspective, and she also wanted to know what Zhuge Yihua was thinking at the time. Although there was no possibility for them to be together again, she didn't want to miss the opportunity to understand things and see the other side of things in such a dream.

Greed is useless after all.

"Noer! Noer!"

She heard Huang Cangran's voice.

Zhuge Qinuo was very scared, thinking that she had made Huang Cangran angry because she thought of Zhuge Yihua being discovered by him. She was at a loss and was afraid to face Huang Cangran's questioning. She could no longer sort out her thoughts, and in panic, she realized that it was just a dream. She tried hard to control her body and struggled to wake up.

After waking up and not really waking up several times, and waking up and not really waking up again, she finally broke free from the shackles of the dream.

"Nuo'er?" Huang Cangran's voice was very clear.

She opened her eyes, Huang Cangyan was beside her bed, and her hand was tightly holding his hand. She exerted a little more strength, and after confirming that this was reality, she let go.

"Huang Cangran!" She turned her head.

"What? Are you so disappointed to see me? I called you by your full name and you turned around?" Huang Cangran's joke once again proved that she had returned to reality.

"Huang Cangran, I have something to ask you." She still didn't look at him. After saying a few more words, she could hear her voice getting hoarse.

"You were doing the questions in your dream?" Huang Cangran smiled, "You asked the questions as soon as you woke up?"

"I want to ask, when I was a freshman in high school, that was the year you decided to go abroad..." Zhuge Qinuo didn't ask the whole question in the end. She couldn't be so selfish. She wanted to ask only because she had dreamed about it, but for Huang Cangran, this matter had long passed. Maybe it hadn't passed, but that matter might be something he didn't want to recall again in his life.

"What happened that year?" Huang Cangran asked vigilantly.

"That year..." She was ill and suddenly couldn't think of a different topic to talk about. "I suddenly forgot."

"How could I forget?" Huang Cangran was a little anxious.

Zhuge Qinuo: "I just forgot."

Huang Cangran: “Impossible!”

"I am forgetful." Afraid that he would continue to pester her, she immediately added, "I'm hungry."

"Are you hungry? I made something for you. I'll get it." Huang Cangran said.

Zhuge Qinuo was glad that her trick really diverted his attention.

Huang Cangran walked out of the room, and her eyes turned red the moment she closed the door.

How could he not understand what she wanted to ask about most? She did not continue, which was a mercy to him.

That day, that night. His first attempt to explore her feelings ended in failure. The feeling at that time is still clear now.

She left, and he remained where he was.

He used to laugh at his own stupidity, his own impulsiveness, and his persistence in this relationship that she denied before it even started. It was like a cliff. Just because it was her, he chose to jump in without hesitation, no matter he was in the past or now. Even though he would fall to the bottom of the cliff and be smashed to pieces every time. But thinking about it carefully, apart from the heart-wrenching pain, he actually had no regrets.

Thinking about it again, he never hated himself for having no regrets.

This is love! His love for her cannot be called stupid or impulsive. His feelings for her are the result of so many years of accumulation. At that time, he thanked her for allowing him to devote himself so purely. Now, he also thanked her for allowing him to be by her side, no matter what his identity was.

As I thought about it, tears welled up and, like before, they flowed down my cheeks and the corners of my mouth, salty and bitter.

Zhuge Qinuo lay on the bed, trying to continue his dream, but he could not succeed no matter what.

Huang Cangran brought something for Zhuge Qinuo to eat.

Getting ready to go out and let her continue to rest...

"Nuo'er," but still stopped, "That day, that night..."

Zhuge Qinuo had a headache, but the nervousness in her heart made her forget the pain temporarily.

Zhuge Qinuo's silence was a tacit approval for Huang Cangran.

He stood at the door: "That night, after you left, I didn't leave. I stayed where I was. I wasn't pretending to be pitiful. I was trying my best to convince myself to let it go, to numb myself and calmly accept it."

"But after you left, I suddenly felt that your life and your world, just like you who left at that time, seemed like I had never really participated in them."

"We are like a family. But this seems like a long time ago. Is the attention and understanding I have paid to you, and the time I have spent by your side, really enough?"

"I am only a small part of your life. Perhaps I have long been an insignificant existence to you."

"How much do you know and understand about the limited attention and companionship that I think is filled with my deep affection?"

"You were still young! Yes, you were still young at that time. What was wrong with your refusal? I already understood at that time that maybe I should let you make your own choices and experience the life that belongs to you."

"From that day on, I knew that many things between us had changed because of what I did to you. Neither you nor I could face each other calmly anymore."

"I was thinking, if possible, I should just stay quietly at the side. Perhaps, from now on, I can only stay at the side, farther away than ever before."

"But I was also in a panic, a sudden panic. I felt like I was going to lose you from now on. We wouldn't even be as close as we once were as siblings. My heart felt like it was missing a piece."

"After so many years, you also have someone in your heart, you should understand a feeling - you miss each other so much even though you just separated. Yes, that was the emotion at that time."

"I admit that I still had expectations for you at that time. I expected you to come back and tell me that you regretted it."

"I also thought, even if you don't agree to be together, as long as you come back to comfort me, even if you come to call me stupid, at least that can prove that you still care about me. At least, more or less, I may still be able to make us go back to the way we were before."

"Like now?" Zhuge Qinuo knew he had finished speaking, so she asked.

"Like now!" he replied.

"Don't think too much, and don't always keep the past in mind. Overthinking is not good for you. You are still sick. You will have enough ability and time in the future to choose and enjoy what you want." Huang Cangran was comforting her again, "As long as it is what you want, I..."

"You will give them all to me!" Zhuge Qinuo interrupted.

This was what he wanted to say but didn't say that night, and it was also the understanding she wanted to express but didn't have the chance to express that night.

"Thank you, Brother Cangran!" she said.

"Good night, have a good rest." Huang Cangran went out.