12dz Chapter 193 What If You Didn’t Fall in Love with Me
Chapter 193 What If You Didn’t Fall in Love with Me
She had smelled it many, many times. If she could have this smell to accompany her before going to bed at night, she would sleep more soundly.
Mu Chaoran kept talking, saying a lot.
He is the one who is most afraid of losing.
Lin Xige didn't care what he said because it didn't matter.
She only felt that Mu Chaoran was holding her very tightly, his arms were squeezing her so hard that she could hardly breathe.
"Mu Chaoran..."
As soon as she spoke, he responded almost immediately: "I'm here!"
"You don't have to say anything more, I understand everything," Lin Xige said softly, "I now fully understand your purpose, your actions, and your subsequent thoughts. You don't have to explain it again."
Slowly, she raised her head from his arms and looked at his angular jaw.
"I only have one question for you, Mu Chaoran."
Mu Chaoran met her gaze, his Adam's apple rolled: "What are you talking about."
"What if you didn't fall in love with me?" Lin Xige asked, "What would my ending be then?"
She seems to be living a good life now. Mu Chaoran only has her in his heart. He keeps admitting his mistakes and begging for her forgiveness.
It seems that she is the one occupying a high position.
She is the one who is loved.
But actually?
A man’s love is so illusory. It comes inexplicably and goes away like a passing cloud.
What if Mu Chaoran didn’t fall in love with her during their marriage?
What if Mu Chaoran followed his original plan and proceeded step by step?
How miserable Lin Xige would be.
She will feel ten thousand times worse than she does now!
Her feelings for Mu Chaoran have been real from the beginning to now, and they come from the heart without any falsehood.
Lin Xige really loves Chao Ran from beginning to end.
And what about Mu Chaoran’s love?
He just fell in love with her halfway.
That's why he is afraid of losing her now, and he is begging her to forgive him and continue to be husband and wife.
Once Mu Chaoran stopped loving her, she would fall into an abyss from which there would be no return, and she would never dare to give even a little bit of love to anyone again in her life.
If he didn't love her, he wouldn't care about her emotions. He would just watch coldly, letting her tears fall and being heartbroken.
All the pain will be borne by Lin Xige alone.
He completed his plan perfectly, escaped unscathed, and enjoyed the fruits of victory.
What about her? What about her? What should I do? How should I spend the rest of my life!
"Mu Chaoran, it's because you fell in love with me along the way that the love I gave you didn't seem to be completely wasted. But who could have predicted that you would fall in love with me? Even you didn't expect it..."
It's a gamble.
Mu Chaoran thought he could win for sure and would only win and not lose.
As a result, he lost his most sincere love.
Lin Xige was confused and unaware. She just put her sincere heart in front of Mu Chaoran, lived a happy married life with him, and managed her ordinary days. In the end, she won Mu Chaoran's heart.
She was supposed to be the loser, but in the end she won a lot of money.
Is she happy?
not at all.
"I can't answer your question, Xige," Mu Chaoran looked into her eyes, "The fact is that I fell in love with you, so I can't imagine how I would handle our relationship and marriage if I hadn't fallen in love with you."
Lin Xige opened her mouth and said, "Let me tell you, with your personality and style, how would you handle it?"
Mu Chaoran was about to say something, but Lin Xige interrupted him and took over the conversation.
"You turn a blind eye to my emotions. Whether I cry, feel sad or even depressed, you don't care at all. You only care about when I will return to the Lin family and take back my identity as the daughter of the Lin family from Lin Bingxue to make you proud."
"If I want to divorce you, you won't agree. You finally married me, how can you be willing to break up like this? You will use all kinds of means to keep me by your side, whether it's house arrest or threats. In short, you can do anything, no matter how hard you try. Anyway, you don't have any feelings, you just want to achieve your goal."
"You will regard my love for you as a joke. Maybe you will even laugh at me, asking why I am so cowardly and useless, and so lovesick. If you treat me a little better, I will show you my true heart, but you cannot understand, let alone empathize with me..."
"In your eyes, Mu Chaoran, I, Lin Xige, am just a tool."
After Lin Xige finished speaking, Mu Chaoran remained silent.
He couldn't refute a single word.
because……
Everything she said is right.
After a long while, Mu Chaoran finally managed to squeeze out a sentence: "Xige, those are all assumptions, not facts."
The fact is that he is in love with her and he cares about her.
Lin Xige closed her eyes, and two lines of tears slid down her cheeks again.
Mu Chaoran lowered his head and kissed away the tears from her eyelashes bit by bit.
She didn't cry out loud, but tears kept falling down and she couldn't control it at all.
He could only wipe it off for her over and over again without getting tired of it.
Until Lin Xige had no strength left and collapsed in his arms.
He picked her up and carried her up the stairs step by step.
Lin Xige lay quietly without struggling.
Just walked in silence until you reached the master bedroom.
Mu Chaoran gently placed her on the bed.
"I know..." he whispered, "You don't want to see me, but Xige, we are husband and wife."
"Have a good sleep, I'll be right beside you."
He gently stroked her long hair and tucked her in.
He wouldn't sleep in a separate room, and he didn't want to leave her.
Lin Xige's emotions were so unstable now, how could he let her stay alone in the bedroom.
If something happens, he won't be able to discover it in the first time if he is not there.
The lights went out and the curtains were drawn.
My side felt heavy.
Mu Chaoran lay down, with the fragrance of bath still on his body.
Lin Xige closed her eyes, but she was not sleepy at all.
In the dark, her hearing and sense of smell were particularly acute.
Mu Chaoran lay down next to her, wanting to get close to her, but being cautious, fearing that she would push him away.
So, he was testing.
The quilt and pajamas rubbed against each other, making a rustling sound.
Lin Xige didn't move, feeling Mu Chaoran moving towards her little by little.
The smell on his body gradually became stronger.
Just as Mu Chaoran's shoulder touched hers, and the next second, he was about to reach out his hand——
She turned over so her back was facing him.
"Go to sleep." Lin Xige's voice was unusually hoarse.
After all, I cried too sadly.
She had never cried so hard before, she cried so hard, as if she wanted to vent all the grievances in her life at that moment...
Because of her personality, when she feels wronged or sad, she will just hide in the quilt, or secretly wipe away her tears when no one is around.
Then, he appeared in everyone's sight as if nothing had happened.